“Paciencia Y Fe” – In the Heights

2 May

The day had come exactly four months from when the journey began. I was admitted into the hospital on December 21st and now on the very last day of the 36th week, my babies were finally born on April 21st. While being on bed rest, I have listened to the heartbeats of my twins 244 times and felt them kicking and moving inside of my belly more times than I could count. As I was waiting for the c-section to begin, I could not help but think about how extraordinary it would be to able to meet and hold them after all of this time spent lying in bed.

The night before that amazing day, Brett and I decided to have a date night since it would be our last official night together as a married couple without kids. I was allowed to leave my room and have dinner with him in the family dining room at the hospital. It felt so good just to be able to sit in a chair and eat normally for the first time since becoming bedridden. I definitely will not miss eating lying down with a big towel draped over me. He brought in yummy food from Hillstone which is one of our favorite restaurants and we had a feast with filets and loaded baked potatoes. A much needed break from my usual hospital food dining experience. Dinner was really nice and we got to spend some time out on the patio for some fresh air before going back to the room. After dinner, we arrived in the now famous, room 2524 and the packing up began. Brett started taking all of the decorations off of the walls and little by little, this room went back to the way it was 17 weeks ago. It was very bittersweet in a way because our “Santa Monica studio” had become our new home, but we were so excited to be finally going back to our real home as a family.

The next day, when the time came to go to the operating room, they let me walk down the hall instead of being rolled in which made the start of this next chapter just that much better. Finally on my feet again! My doctor told me how amazed he was that I had gotten this far along in my pregnancy. He, along with all of the nurses were expecting my c-section to be an unplanned event. Typically, women in my situation go into full preterm labor where contractions can’t not be stopped by major drugs and the birth commences with an emergency c-section. This scenario had already happened to some of the other moms here on bed rest, so I always made sure to prepare myself for this kind of potentially scary event. Yet as each week went by, the chances of me delivering too early became less likely and the NICU started becoming a maybe instead of a have to.

In the operating room, I was being prepped for surgery and a sense of calm came over me even though I was being poked and prodded. Then Brett came in and sat down beside me in full scrubs and I knew that the show was about to start. At 5:22pm the first cry was heard from Ella Madison and my own tears could not stop flowing. Then at 5:23pm there was another cry from Ethan Tate and my joyous crying began to echo theirs. Two strong crying babies! They are breathing on their own which means that they could be alright. As soon as Brett came back to me after checking on them he confirmed that they were both very healthy scoring an 8 on their first APGAR test at one minute old and then the score raised to 9 at the five minute mark. No NICU!!! Once they were all cleaned up, they brought them over to me so that I could kiss each one and look at them for the first time. After all of the incredible sacrifice and hard work over the past couple of years, we were finally a family and all of the thousands of minutes spent on bed rest just melted away. Not only were they healthy but everyone in that operating room could not believe their weights! Ethan weighed 6 pounds 2 ounces and Ella weighed 6 pounds even. My petite five foot frame carried over 12 pounds of baby not including the added weight of the two placentas and amniotic fluid sacks. What was even more amazing was the fact that this small piece of string which held my cervix shut for the past four months made this successful outcome possible. My doctor is also an expert at performing the cerclage procedure which drastically helped improved my odds. I heard many horror stories online of poorly done cerclage procedures where the stitch comes loose or falls out, resulting in dire circumstances. When I was being sewn up after the c-section, he was also taking out the cerclage and I requested to keep this miraculous piece of string so that I could never forget how Dr. Tabsh saved the two precious lives of my twins.

*The song “Paciencia Y Fe” is from the 2008 Broadway musical In the Heights which won many Tony Awards including Best Musical. The character Abuela Claudia sings this song about her journey to America from Cuba as a young girl, and how her mother kept telling her “paciencia y fe” which means patience and faith since the transition was very difficult. Since being admitted into the hospital, this song has been playing inside of my head because I knew that patience and faith were two things that I would need to survive this tremendous life event. It was so important to stay positive, eat healthy, drink lots of water, and most importantly…stay in bed!


Brett taking down the decorations


Me and Dr. Tabsh the night before the c-section


The Broadway Babies meet Mommy!


Proud Papa


14 Responses to ““Paciencia Y Fe” – In the Heights”

  1. Ebru May 3, 2012 at 5:48 am #

    Congratulations Jessica!They look wonderful.I wish your family long,healthy life.
    I am the one who writes you from Turkey.I couldn’t tell you before in order not to upset and depress you,now I can tell.I lost my twin boys due to IC at exactly 18 weeks.It was the most traumatic time of our lives.They were IVF babies and noone could do anything to stop this horrible period.I found your blog after my hospital days and your calmness,resistance and laughing face gave me inspiration,hope and power to try again.Believe me,the most desirable time for a baby is when you send one to heaven.A gap occurs inside your heart and you feel that it can be filled only with another baby.I lost two.It is heartbreaking and unforgetten.As I said before you give me inspiration to try again.You give me hope that miracles can happen.

    • jfisher May 4, 2012 at 1:39 pm #

      I am extremely sorry for your loss Ebru. Every time I hear about someone else’s IC experience that did not go well, it makes me so sad that innocent lives could not be saved in time. I do believe everything happens for a reason in order to teach us valuable life lessons and I pray for you that when you do try again, everything will go perfectly and you will become an amazing mom. I am so glad that my blog has been able to help you through such a difficult time. Please know that you are strong and I am sure a miracle will be on its way to you too! Please keep me posted about your progress. I am praying for you and your family.

    • Carol May 6, 2012 at 4:44 am #

      Hi ebru,
      I lost my son too @18 weeks due to incompetent cervix in 2005 and another baby @ 11wks in 2007. God knows how hurtful i was and endured it for years. My husband and i, however, did not loose hope and prayed to God to give us another chance to become parents. My latest pregnancy did not go well either and i was scared to death that history could repeat itself and i might loose another baby due to IC. But i was able to beat all the odds. Thanks to my amazing doctors, and the divine intervention, i was able to sustain my pregnancy until 36 weeks with barely no cervix left. You too can have a success story. I’ll pray for you!

  2. anc8383 May 3, 2012 at 6:14 am #

    I am from the May board on babyzone and have been following your story for a while. I just wanted to say congratulations on your beautiful, healthy babies. They were born the day after my little girl 🙂 I hope the next chapter of your lives is full of joy and happiness! Again, congratulations!

    • jfisher May 4, 2012 at 1:42 pm #

      Congrats to you too! Good luck with everything and best wishes.
      I guess we should have joined the April Babyzone board 🙂

  3. Carol May 3, 2012 at 6:32 am #

    Congratulations!!!!! Welcome to motherhood…i was thinking about you these past few days and wondering when you gave birth and how are your babies. Can’t believe how happy i am reading your latest blog and we did not even meet. Bed rest and cerclage really work. I too have a miracle baby born at 36w3d after 22 weeks of bedrest .
    Take care of youself momma! I know it’s hard taking care of 2 babies esp the first month. It will take a while before you regain your strength after months of bedrest. My baby is almost 3 months and still have not gained my strength back. My husband boughtme a bike hoping i can prepare myself on goin back to work physically after a month.
    Again, congratulations! To God be the glory!

    • jfisher May 4, 2012 at 1:44 pm #

      Thanks Carol! I have been very thankful that bed rest worked so well and now we are finally home with our babies. It will be a long road to recovery and I will continue to post all about it on my blog.

  4. Jennifer Brown May 3, 2012 at 7:05 am #

    Congrats Congrats!!! So happy for you and Brett!! What an incredible and amazing journey and what a wonderful and exciting new one that has begun!! Lots of love, miss you and can’t wait to see you guys and the babies!!! I love their names too!!!

  5. Diane May 3, 2012 at 8:44 am #

    Jessica and Brett,
    I was so honored to have gotten to know you and play some small role in your time at UCLA. The babies are so beautiful and I wish you all the best as your family now begins a new chapter. Many blessings.

  6. Vanessa May 3, 2012 at 10:40 am #

    Congrats on your beautiful twins!!!!!! Your story gives me hope that I can get pregnant, and become a mother. I loved reading your blog, and I hope you continue to when you get some time that is, so we can know how the twins are doing.

    • jfisher May 4, 2012 at 1:46 pm #

      Thanks so much Vanessa! I will definitely post as much as I can since there is still so much story to tell.

  7. Mariela May 4, 2012 at 5:25 am #

    Congratulations to you both!! They are beautiful 😉

  8. Grace May 6, 2012 at 4:24 pm #

    I am so happy to hear the birth story after these last 4 months! You have been an inspiration and I say Congrats proud parents!!!! 🙂


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