“Waiting for Life” – Once on This Island

9 Feb

Being at the hospital now for 50 days, there has been some turnover with the other girls on bed rest. They have either 1) delivered, 2) been stable enough to go home to continue bed rest without constant monitoring, or 3) are extremely close to their due date and are sent home to go into labor naturally. Due to my circumstances, going home before delivery is never going to be an option so seeing others leave is bittersweet. After a whole lot of patience, determination, and discipline they are in a sense, graduating. But instead of getting a diploma or degree at the end, they get a baby! I am definitely sad to see them leave our little community here but it gives me so much hope and inspiration that I will soon get there and I might just hear “Pomp and Circumstance” playing in the distance.

Thinking back to all of the other graduations I have had in my life, it reminds me how special that time is and how each of those experiences have been preparing me for what I am going through right now. Graduation represents a new beginning or rite of passage where possibilities seem to be endless. It also forces me to think back on all of the hard work and accomplishments which made the graduation possible to begin with. College was of course much more challenging than all of the other schooling and education I have received as a child and adolescent. No one is holding my hand anymore to make sure I get to class or that my homework is completed. I also had to pay a lot of money to be there and if I didn’t put in the effort, my money would be wasted and all the responsibility would be on my shoulders. College is truly one of the first adult tests that I faced which was vital in assisting me to have a successful career and future. Although, while in college I did still feel like I was in a safe bubble since expectations of success were not going to come until after finishing. This was the time to “incubate” and absorb all of the knowledge possible. I was in complete preparation mode just waiting to start my life after being in school for practically all of it. Then, the bubble gets popped and the real adventure begins.

For me, being pregnant is very similar to this experience since I have wanted to become a mom my entire life. Every life lesson along the way was been preparing me for this very moment. Being on bed rest is my final exam which if successful, will result in becoming a parent and getting to gleefully toss my mortarboard up into the air. I am mastering the art of patience which I know I will need once these two babies come into this world. I have the time now to study, focus on the end goal, and use my next 70+ days wisely. I started as “one small girl” but as I grow, my commencement draws near and a very important life chapter will begin as I transition into the role of parent.

*The song “Waiting For Life” is from the 1990 Broadway musical Once on This Island which tells the love story of Ti Moune who is a peasant girl that falls in love with a rich man from the upper-class. At the very beginning of the show, she sings this inspiring song praying to the Gods that she is ready to start her life, find adventure, and love. When I was about to graduate college, I too was waiting for my own life to truly begin once school was finally over. I got to move in with the love of my life, get married, start my career, and ultimately start a family. Now, I am waiting for two little lives to begin and as each day passes, I see others around me starting this journey and reassuring me that there is a very bright light at the end of this long tunnel.


My college graduation (2005)


9 Responses to ““Waiting for Life” – Once on This Island”

  1. Jennifer February 10, 2012 at 4:24 am #

    Beautiful picture!

  2. Grace February 10, 2012 at 5:51 am #

    Your hard work is definitely going to pay off! And you will be an even better mother for it! 🙂

    I have enjoyed reading your blog during these past 4.5 weeks I have been on bedrest, 3.5 of them in the hospital. Yesterday, my surro twins were delivered early, at 25 weeks 1 day. They weighed 2.1 and 1.12. Despite their early gestation they are stable and doing well so far! Every extra day is a blessing those little ones can be in your womb 🙂 Continued good luck, patience, and endurance be with you and your family.

    • Brett February 10, 2012 at 9:43 pm #

      Hi Grace,

      Thanks for your comments. I always read everyone’s comments. Our thoughts and love are with you for your twins.

      (Jessica’s husband)

    • jfisher February 11, 2012 at 7:38 pm #


      Thank you so much for reading my blog and I truly hope that it helped you in your own journey. Sending prayers your way to you and the twins!

  3. Paul February 10, 2012 at 11:51 pm #

    Very open. More: openly sharing your transformation. Courageous. Beautiful. Bravo. TOD

  4. Mariela February 12, 2012 at 3:06 pm #

    Hello Jessica, I have been following your blog since the time we spoke on BBC about Jem 🙂 I am so happy that your doing well. I am not on bedrest yet and just had my cerclage put in on Tuesday. Your story gives me so much hope for my twins. Always keeping you and your family in my prayers.

    • jfisher February 14, 2012 at 10:24 pm #

      Thanks Mariela! You are in my prayers as well.

  5. Cathy Cube February 14, 2012 at 4:28 pm #

    I could completely relate to how you feel when one of the bed rest moms graduate or are sent home. It was always bittersweet. While I was really happy to see my fellow patients go home, I would also feel left behind, like I was still in this never ending time-out. But hang in there- I thought my time would never come to an end. 117 days of bedrest served. You’re well on your way too. :-).


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